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I know that it been a really long time since I've but and entry up on this; that's mainly cause I've been busy with a lot of shit going on in my life....
Let me start of with my dad. Back in Jan he was having major smotach pains and the doctors couldn't find out what was going on. Finally somtime in late Jan early Feb, the doctors found out that my dad's got Pancreatic Cancer and they said that he's only got 6-12 months to live. When the whole family found out about it we all were speechless and crying up a fucking storm. My dad's been in and out of the hospital having test and all that stuff done. A few weeks ago he had a biposy of the liver to see if the cancer go to his liver or not; thankfully the cancer didn't get to his liver but today we found out worse news...We found out that his cancer is at stage 4 and that basically means that there's nothing that the doctors can do to help the cancer. When I found this out today by my mom the first thing I did was hit a wall (tipically me hit the first thing I see) the next thing I wanted to do was call Rob...
Robs my new boyfriend....He's one of the most nicest, hottest guys that I've ever dated. He treates me like a princess and an angle (which we all know that I'm not and so does he).It's funny we've only been dating going on a week and we both feel like we're meant to be together and that we're each other soul mattes; I was trying to explain that to one of my girls but she doesn't understand how we can feel like this for each other after just meeting each other last Thursday and just starting dating last Thursday too. But I told her, I just got this feeling in my heart and my stomch that Rob's the guy for me. He even asked me to marry him already and I said yes...but I haven't gotten a ring yet...I'm hoping that I get it for my birthday which is next Wed. I'm going to be 23...I feel old,lol.....But something else happened today other then finding out about my date...Rob called me just about an hour ago to see how my day was so I told him about my dad and then he tells me that he was out with his ex and they talked about their daugther and they're now talking about getting a house together so he can see his daughter more...I understand that he wants to see his daughter more then once a week but how can you go an ask someone to marry you and tell them that you love them with all your heart and that you would never do anything to hurt them and then turn around and tell them that you're going to move in with ur ex...I just don't get it.....
I've just been feeling like I'm being punished for something...Between my dad's cancer and now Rob with moving in with his ex I don't know how much more I can take of this...
Later,
Tara
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| Week 8: Football Ranking |
[25 Oct 2006|02:00am] |
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THE TOP 12
1. Chicago Bears (6-0) – After all the talk about the impressive starts of quarterback Rex Grossman and wide receiver Bernard Berrian, last week's close call at Arizona got the Bears focused on balancing out the offense again. This is the week the running game breaks out.
2. Indianapolis Colts (6-0) – It was good to finally see quarterback Peyton Manning break out and have another monster game. But the news regarding safety Mike Doss (out for the year with a torn ACL) and defensive tackle Montae Reagor's (hurt during a car accident prior to the game) cast a pall over Sunday's win.
3. Denver Broncos (5-1) – If the defense (allowing just 7.3 points a game) proves it can hold the mighty Colts to seven points on Sunday, that offense might not need to make any changes. We would have to start considering that this defense is truly capable of winning a Super Bowl without a lot of help.
4. New England Patriots (5-1) – The team seems very vanilla when compared to the last few years, so maybe that's why this has been such a quiet start for the Patriots. Forget the Week 9 contest against Indianapolis. The Nov. 26 game against the Bears should be epic.
5. New Orleans Saints (5-1) – Calling his team back one day early from the bye week vacation was a pretty smart move for coach Sean Payton. The Saints can't afford to slip now with a ridiculous schedule left in front of them. Seven of the schedule's final 10 games should be against playoff contending teams.
6. Seattle Seahawks (4-2) – The fact that quarterback Matt Hasselbeck isn't out for the year is a big blessing. And with a slightly soft schedule over the next five games, and the return of running back Shaun Alexander early next month, the Seahawks can stay afloat.
7. St. Louis Rams (4-2) – Do the Rams really deserve this spot? We'll find out in the next four games. The picnic schedule is over, with three (San Diego, Seattle and Carolina) of the next four. The other contest is a home date with Kansas City.
8. Cincinnati Bengals (4-2) – The Bengals needed a win like Sunday's to kick start the team in the face of controversy and mounting injuries. And it was a must with the next three on the schedule: Atlanta, at Baltimore and San Diego.
9. San Diego Chargers (4-2) – Yes, the defense is in for some hard times, but I'm not convinced that this team can't stay in the playoff hunt by outscoring teams for the next 4-6 weeks while all the defensive players get their issues sorted out.
10. New York Giants (4-2) – Considering LaVar Arrington's torn Achilles suffered on Monday and his history of knee issues, you have to wonder if he'll ever be an elite player again. As it was, there were already criticisms of him being overrated before this injury.
11. Atlanta Falcons (4-2) – Hand it to quarterback Michael Vick. He backed up his words about wishing the coaches would open up the passing game. If that performance against Pittsburgh is legitimate (and we never know from one game to the next with this team), then Atlanta might have discovered something special.
12. Baltimore Ravens (4-2) – There aren't going to be any wholesale changes on that offense, even with the ousting of coordinator Jim Fassel. That means at the end of the day, it's going to be up to the players to get this thing right.
RISING
Minnesota Vikings (4-2) – I'm still not buying that this offense is on track. The first of two third-quarter touchdowns was a gimmick halfback pass and the 95-yard run happens once in a career. The Vikings have yet to show they can score 20-plus offensive points over a span of several games.
THE MUDDLED MIDDLE (in alphabetical order)
Buffalo Bills (2-5) – With eight turnovers and three touchdown drives in the last three games, quarterback J.P. Losman's time has to be running short. Another loss will push Buffalo out of the playoff hunt, which should pave the way to finding out if the Bills have a quarterback to build around during the season's final eight games.
Carolina Panthers (4-3) – Blaming an interception on an opponent's blown coverage seems foolish, but if you watch the tape, coach John Fox is right. The bigger issue for the Panthers is injuries. Three starters have been lost for the season, and four others have serious nagging issues that will last for the rest of the year.
Dallas Cowboys (3-3) – Considering the red zone turnovers by quarterback Drew Bledsoe, it's hard to say coach Bill Parcells made the wrong decision. But he had better be correct in all of his admiration of Tony Romo or this season is going to go downhill fast.
Green Bay Packers (2-4) – It was nice to see cornerback Charles Woodson justifying a small part of that huge paycheck the Packers are paying him. It remains to be seen if it was one great game by a fading player or a sign of Woodson breaking out once again.
Houston Texans (2-4) – Getting some production out of the running game paid huge dividends. And considering his solid outing against the Jaguars, it might be time to just plug Wali Lundy in and stick with one guy the rest of the way.
Jacksonville Jaguars (3-3) – Injuries are decimating this team, but that still doesn't explain why quarterback Byron Leftwich played so poorly against the Texans. Even his biggest supporters have to start wondering if he's ever going to get over the hump and become an upper-tier quarterback.
Kansas City Chiefs (3-3) – If quarterback Trent Green returns next month and Damon Huard has gone 4-2 or 5-2 as a starter, why make a change? Ride Huard until he goes cold.
New York Jets (4-3) – There's a good chance that running back Curtis Martin could be announcing his retirement in the next 7-10 days. Considering his tireless work ethic, he would be a natural addition to Eric Mangini's coaching staff if television doesn't come calling first.
Philadelphia Eagles (4-3) – Yes, quarterback Donovan McNabb's decision before halftime not to throw into the end zone was frustrating. But the reality is sometimes you see an opening and think you have more than you really do.
Pittsburgh Steelers (2-4) – We've spent a lot of time talking about quarterback Ben Roethlisberger, but the 14 turnovers this season have killed the Steelers. All three on Sunday were converted into Atlanta touchdowns.
San Francisco 49ers (2-4) – With the return of Larry Allen and Jonas Jennings, the 49ers have their offensive line back to full health for the first time since the season opener. Just in time to get slaughtered by a motivated Bears team.
Tampa Bay Buccaneers (2-4) – The win over Philadelphia was amazing and might be one of the top five or six games of the year. But giving up 506 yards to Philadelphia and having the defense ranked 27th in the league this week seems astonishing. How long before people start grumbling about the huge salary of defensive coordinator Monte Kiffin?
Washington Redskins (2-5) – The bye week couldn't come at a better time. This team looks like it's in a daze. Like I said last offseason, defensive coordinator Gregg Williams is going to regret not going after another head coaching gig when he had his chance. When Joe Gibbs steps aside, I don't see any of the current coaches being promoted to his spot.
FALLING
Cleveland Browns (1-5) – With the offensive backslide over the past few weeks, offensive coordinator Maurice Carthon had to go. Defensively, cornerback Gary Baxter's injuries (knee and chest) are devastating. It will be a miracle if he plays again.
THE BOTTOM FIVE
28. Miami Dolphins (1-6) – Coach Nick Saban says he's not pointing a finger at his players for the rough start, but it wouldn't be the first time if he was. Has anyone noticed that his draft classes have yet to produce a sure-fire impact player?
29. Tennessee Titans (1-5) – Getting wide receiver David Givens healthy again should give this offense a little boost. Meanwhile, the rumors of Jeff Fisher being the next guy in Dallas aren't going to go away.
30. Detroit Lions (1-6) – Well, it looks like it's going to be the Lions and the Raiders vying for position in the Brady Quinn sweepstakes. At least there's something to look forward to.
31. Oakland Raiders (1-5) – It's good to halt that talk of 0-16, but the Raiders might lose to Pittsburgh this week by 40. And why is there talk about going back to Aaron Brooks when his chest muscle is healed? The season is over. Play the kid and hope he starts to round into form by the end of the season.
32. Arizona Cardinals (1-6) – The Bidwill family says coach Dennis Green's job is safe for now. But it's looking like he's lost this team. It seems inevitable that he's done.
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| How did I get so lucky? |
[16 Aug 2006|11:09pm] |
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I know that it's been a really long time since I last posted a blog. There as been a lot going on in my life since my last post. Where should I start??? Let me start with the newest thing to happen to me in my life..and that would be Frank. What am I to say about him??? He's really one of the best guys that I know and I'm lucky to call him my boyfriend. Out of all the guys that I have ever dated Frankie is one of the best. He's treates me right, makes me laugh all the time and whenever I'm around him I always have a smile on my face. He just makes me feel specail and beautiful and no one as ever been able to make me feel beautiful and special. Everyone is prob. asking themselvs where did Tara find him and what not... To answer all of ya'lls questions I'll give you the 411. We met online, he found my myspace profile and messages me and ever since then we've been talking and yesterday was a week of us being together. I know that a lot of you are saying "Here we go again. Tara's found another guy. How long is this one going to last? and That's really fast to start dating someone like that, you don't really know each other." But what a lot of you might not understand is that when you have a major feeling in your tummy to do something you should really do it and that's what I did. I did what my heart and my tummy was telling me to do and I'm really really really happy that I did. What esle can I say but I love him . And that I believe that this relationship is gonna be a lasting one.
How many times can someone really fall in love? We all have our first loves, and sometimes we even have a second and third. I can truly say that I'm falling madly in love with Frank and this time it's for real. I know that I've told my pass boyfriends that I love them but the love that I have for Frank is a totally different that love that I had for Tim, Eric, Darly and Jesse. This love is like something that I have never felt before and I don't want this feeling to go away. Frank is one of the greatest guys that I've ever met. He's funny, caring, loving, kind, and HOT but to me it's how he's treating me that's making me fall in love with him. Like I said in my last blog Frank is the greatest guy in the world and I'm still trying to figure out how I got so lucky to find a guy like him. All I know is that I'm not going to let this one go. That's about it for now.
Later,
Tara
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| Moving |
[07 May 2006|08:48am] |
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It's been a while since I last updated this thing. And kind of a lot as happened since my last update. Daryl and I broke up about 4 weeks ago. I'm really not sad about it or anything. I'm loving the single life and I'm moving on. Since I've been single I've been going out a lot more, drinking, going clubbing mainly to Boca Joe's every Thursday nite with Clare, Chris and Amber. I've met a lot of cut/hot guys and I'm really into two of them. One if my friend Jesse from Texas that I've known for going on 2 years; and we've both liked each other since we met but didn't do anything cause of the distance. Jesse's 26 yrs old, a chief at a hotel in San Antnio,TX. He's got a daughter who I haven't met yet but I will soon. He's got a cabin in Northern Cali. that's got it's own lake, horses and a bunch of other stuff. When I move out there in July or September we might be living in Texas or at the cabin; that's something that we really haven't decided on yet. Yea, you read it right. I'm moving out of New York to basiclly the other side of the world. Jesse and I both love each other and want to be with each other but the distance is the main issue right now. He's suppose to be coming up here in two weeks or so to visit me. And when I got to Flordia for the month of June he'll be there too. He's drive back up here with Amber and I and spend the rest of his time here till I'm alread to move and then I think we're driving down, I'm not to sure yet. We're planning on getting married to, at least that's what we've kind of been talking about...The other guy that I really like is Patrick. He's Amber's soon to be step-bro. I met him during Spring Break when I went up to Farmington, NY with Amber to visit her mom for most of break. Patrick's 19, in his first and final year of college. He's that smart. He's also firefighter. We talk just about everyday online and on the phone. And we will text each other while we're in classes ;-). I'm Patrick's date to his dad's wedding. Amber and I think it's find of funny cause I'm Patrick's date and she doesn't even have one,lol....
Amber and I have been spending a lot of time together and we're becoming the best of friends. I'm like the only girl friend that she as because just about all her friends are guys and that's kind of how I am. About 96% of my friends are guys. What can I say? Guys are better friends then girls cause girls stab each other in the back and all that shit. We've been hanging out a lot with Josh and Kevin. Gotta love those to guys :-* I could just go on forever about the stuff that us 4 get ourselfs into when we hangout, hehe but I wont. All I'm going to say is that Tuesday and Friday nites are the best, and we have the best time ever :-) There's a lot of drinking and a lot of smoking.....I'm going to miss Amber, Clare, Chris, Josh, Kevin, and everyone else when I move. I just hope that they all will come and visit me and hopefully be part of my wedding whenever Jesse and I decided that it's going to happen. With my luck Amber might end up moving with me. That would be the best:-D Well, I'm getting tired and I still have homework to do, since I'm not graduating this year cause I got dropped from most of my classes cause I was out of town for my cousin muder and what not. But oh well, I might not even finish college at this point :-/
Later,
Tara
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| Heart Broken Into Millions of Tiny Pieces |
[10 Apr 2006|07:36am] |
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My heart is broken into millions of tiny pieces. I've just lost the one person in my life that means more to me then life it's self. Darly and I are "on a break," because he's stressed out and he can't deal with everything right now and he can't deal with the stress of being in a relationship mainly because I'm sick and my knee problems are getting worse. Last night this happened and it fucking sucs because it's a week before our one year of being together After this all happened last night I cut my left wrist till the point that I was bleeding a lot. I know that it's not the right thing to do but I just want to die because Daryl means more to me then anything in the world. Without him in my wolrd I really don't have anything to live for. I've been heart broken before but not like this. This time it hurts a lot more because I really love Daryl and I'll do anything to be with him. I'll fight for him till I die. If he's not in my life as my boyfriend I don't think that I'll beable to live.....
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[25 Feb 2006|03:24pm] |
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I miss his voice, his face, the touch of his hands on my skin. I miss his body, I miss the way he makes me smile for no reason. I miss his sence of humor, his weirdness, and carzyness.I miss everything about him. Most of all I just miss him.
Foreveryone that know what it's like not to see your boyfriend for months on end you know what I'm talking about. This is a feeling that I dont like to have. It's a feeling on emptyness, I don't feel whole when he's not around. It might sounds creepy or what not but I can't sleep without him next to me. Everytime I hear a car/truck go by mo house I think it's him and when it's not I get this sad feeling inside me and I begean to cry. I ask myself,is this a normal feeling to have? I totally feel that Daryl could be "the one" for me.
I'm under a whole lot of stree right now and I'm having a hard time dealing with it without Daryl being here to help me throw it. I'm sick in more ways then one, my knees are giving me more and more problems and college isn't helping with all the homework and projects that I have to get done.
All I want is for this semester to get over with so I can graduate and move back to Lansing because I'll be closer to him and it will be easyer on us no being an hour from each other.
I can't wait till I get to see him again, and I hope it's not a long time till then. Because My birthday is coming up and I really want him to be here for it when a bunch of us go out for it. And three weeks after my birthday is our 1 year of beginning together and I'm plainning something special that I hope he likes.
Well, I guess that's it.
Later,
Tara
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| Lost my voice |
[02 Feb 2006|12:13pm] |
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This day sucks major ass. I'm suppose to be on campus today doing my mixter project fro radio class but i woke up this morning and my voice was gone. I hope that I can do it sometime next week when I get my voice back.
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Not so much as happened since my last update. Started my last semester at BCC, graduating in May; taking a year for and then going back to college for 2 more years at Ithaca College. My class schedule is kind of eassy:
Monday:
ENG 220 9-950
Annoucing for TV/Radio 11-1150
Communication Radio 130-224
Tuesday:
Communication-Magaizne 3-550
Wednesday:
ENG 220 9-950
Annoucing for TV/Radio 11-1150
Communication-Radio 130-245
Thursday:
NO CLASSES AT ALL
Friday:
ENG 220 9-950
Announcing for TV/Radio 11-1150
That's an eassy course load to me. Don't you think?????? We'll that's about it for now.
Later,
Tara
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[30 Dec 2005|09:32pm] |
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It's been a while since I've updates this thing, so I thought that it's about for me to tell you what's been going on with me. Since my last update, I've finished my last fall semester at BCC, and I've been working my ass off at the hell whole called Price Chopper. I also found out that I'm cancer free WOW!!!! My christmas was good. I spent Christmas Eve with Daryl's family and we spent Christmas Day with my family. I really dont want to get into must deatls about things so that 's all I'm going to say.....Tomorrow I'm working till 6pm and then Daryl, and I are going to Julie's appartment to a party for New Year's Eve, and it's going to be a lot of fun. but not as last nite was drinking with pro wrestlers. Man that was a lot of fun. The Animal and I were doing boby shots of each other (daryl as no clue about that part) and Ray and I did a few shot in memory of Eddie and the chic from MNM and I got into a bitch fight. I won!!!!...Well, that's all I can remember bc I'm kind of buzzing right now so. Later..
Later,
Tara
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It's been a while since I've updates this thing, so I thought that it's about for me to tell you what's been going on with me. Since my last update, I've finished my last fall semester at BCC, and I've been working my ass off at the hell whole called Price Chopper. I also found out that I'm cancer free WOW!!!! My christmas was good. I spent Christmas Eve with Daryl's family and we spent Christmas Day with my family. I really dont want to get into must deatls about things so that 's all I'm going to say.....Tomorrow I'm working till 6pm and then Daryl, and I are going to Julie's appartment to a party for New Year's Eve, and it's going to be a lot of fun. but not as last nite was drinking with pro wrestlers. Man that was a lot of fun. The Animal and I were doing boby shots of each other (daryl as no clue about that part) and Ray and I did a few shot in memory of Eddie and the chic from MNM and I got into a bitch fight. I won!!!!...Well, that's all I can remember bc I'm kind of buzzing right now so. Later..
Later,
Tara
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| Eddie Guerror Passes Away |
[14 Nov 2005|12:34pm] |
WWE is deeply saddened by the news that Eddie Guerrero has passed away. He was found dead Sunday morning in his hotel room in Minneapolis. Eddie is survived by his wife Vickie and daughters Shaul, 14, Sherilyn, 9, and Kaylie Marie, 3. The cause of death is unknown at this time. An autopsy will be performed in Minneapolis on Monday, and Eddie's body will then be flown to Phoenix. Funeral arrangements are set for Wednesday in Scottsdale, Arizona.
Eddie Guerrero's History:
Eddie Guerrero was born into Mexico’s first family of professional wrestling in 1967. The son of the legendary Gory Guerrero, it was only natural that Eddie, along with his three older brothers, would pursue a career in sports-entertainment. With wrestling flowing through his veins, Eddie began his in-ring training at a very young age. In fact, Guerrero had mastered the dropkick by his third birthday. Eddie moved from his family’s backyard ring to the professional circuit in 1987 when he debuted as “Mascara Magica” or “Magic Mask” in Mexico. After teaming with his brothers, Guerrero broke out on his own, crafting his skills in the lucha libre world. Eddie then moved on to Japan, wrestling as Black Tiger. It was there that Guerrero first met good friend Chris Benoit. After moving back to Mexico full time, Eddie began teaming with El Hijo del Santo, who was the son of Gory Guerrero’s long-time associate El Santo. Eddie and Santo eventually broke up, with Eddie forming a duo with Art Barr. The pair would feud with Santo in one of the most heated rivalries in lucha libre history, which culminated in Guerrero and Barr losing a hair vs. mask match to Santo and Octagon in November 1994. Eddie then moved on to ECW, where he gained his first full exposure in the United States. Not long after his ECW debut, Guerrero defeated 2 Cold Scorpio for the ECW Television Championship, a title he held twice before moving to WCW. Guerrero's ECW stay will always be remembered for the amazing match he had with Dean Malenko before leaving the promotion. After the match, which many consider to be one of the greatest ECW matches ever, the crowd showed their appreciation for Guerrero by giving him a standing ovation. Guerrero spent four years competing in WCW. While there, he was a part of numerous memorable rivalries with the likes of Booker T, Rey Mysterio, Dean Malenko, Ric Flair and nephew Chavo. On Dec. 29, 1996, Guerrero defeated Diamond Dallas Page in the finals of a tournament to crown a new United States Champion. He also went on to capture the Cruiserweight Championship on two separate occasions before leaving WCW. On Jan. 31, 2000, four new faces showed up on Monday Night RAW and shocked the sports-entertainment world. They were former WCW wrestlers Benoit, Malenko, Perry Saturn and Eddie Guerrero – The Radicalz. The faction immediately got involved in a match between the New Age Outlaws and Al Snow & Steve Blackman, marking the beginning of Guerrero’s amazing WWE career. Over the next five years, Eddie Guerrero overcame many obstacles to reach the top. In his first WWE match against the Outlaws, Eddie suffered a dislocated elbow, but returned to action in a short time. On April 3, 2000, he claimed his first piece of WWE gold, defeating Chris Jericho to win the European Championship. He would go on to win that championship one more time in 2001.
After The Radicalz went their separate ways, Eddie began a relationship with his “Mamacita,” Chyna. In fact, it was Chyna that Eddie defeated in September 2000 to claim the Intercontinental Championship. After their split, Eddie’s demons got the best of him. He subsequently took time off from the ring in 2001 to deal with his personal issues. Upon his return in 2002, Eddie’s career skyrocketed to new heights. He won the Intercontinental Championship again in May 2002, this time from Rob Van Dam. Eventually, Eddie moved to SmackDown where he teamed with nephew Chavo to capture the WWE Tag Team Championship. He would win that championship three more times, as well as the United States Championship, but his greatest moment came in February 2004. On Feb. 15, 2004 in San Francisco, Guerrero defeated Brock Lesnar at No Way Out to become WWE Champion. He had reached the pinnacle of the industry, and went on to headline WrestleMania XX against Kurt Angle. No one will ever forget the scene at the end of the show, when Eddie joined long-time friend Benoit in the ring to celebrate moments after Benoit won the World Heavyweight Championship. Eddie later formed an alliance with another old friend, Rey Mysterio, and the duo would win the WWE Tag Team Championship in early 2005. This was Eddie’s final run as a champion, as the duo split up after WrestleMania 21 and began a bitter rivalry, highlighted by numerous breath-taking matches. At No Mercy on Oct. 9, 2005, Eddie’s 38th birthday, Eddie squared off against a new amigo, Batista. He was unable to win the World Heavyweight Championship from the Animal, but their friendship was cemented when Batista led the crowd in singing Happy Birthday to Latino Heat afterwards. A little more than one month later, Guerrero competed in his final televised match on the Nov. 11 edition of Friday Night SmackDown where he defeated Mr. Kennedy.
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| This Illness is killing me |
[07 Nov 2005|12:37pm] |
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Well where should I begin? How about the fact that I have breast cancer. I've been in kemo for three weeks now and it's not going so good. I have good days and bad days, but mostly bad days. If I didnt have Daryl to help me through all this I would be a scared shitless. Dont get me wrong I am scared to death; and I find myself at times laying in bed thinking about it and breaking out in tears. Latey Ive been to the point where I dont want to deal with it anymore and I just want to crawl in a whole and die :-( I'm trying not to think about it as much but thats kidnd of hard to do. Well, I do have a lot more to say but I have to get to class. If I'm up to it I might finish the update later tonite.
Later,
Tara
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[20 Oct 2005|06:17pm] |
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I thought that its time to update this. Ive been busy with classes, working, and other shit. I'm failing College Algebra and Trig, but passing Geology with a high C/low B, got an A in Media and Socitey, and a B in fitness walking. I'm telling you fitness walking is one of the most stupidest classes ever. You would think that all we would do is walk, nope we have to take notes for quizs, do 8 min abs and other stuff that makes us feel like we're back in grade school. Liz, Kristen and I cant stop making fun of the class while we're in it. The prof thinks that we can do everything that she wants us to do, yea right! When Liz, Kristen and I get together we are the meansest girls you will ever met...Other than that I've been working my ass off at the HELL WHOLE CALLED PRICE CHOPPER. I haven't a day off in weeks. I've been going in on all my days off; I need to the money for college. I'm going to Ithaca College next year and thats going to cast me about $30,000 which I dont have. I actually cant wait to move to Ithaca, I'll be closer to Daryl, and I'll be away from my family which is getting on my nerves. If I could ever get my liscens back i would be happy. Other then classes, and work I've been spending most of my free time with Daryl, going to church with him. I know me of all people going to church. Well he wants to figuer out who he ie and he wants me to help so I'm helping him in everyway that I can. What can I say but I love him to death. Well I have a lot more to talk about but I'm going out for some drinks tonite.
Later,
Tara
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[27 Sep 2005|06:43pm] |
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Long time no update. I just thought that it would be a great time to update this thing. A lot has happened since I last updated this. Since my last update I had about 2 more surgerys on my left knee. My knee is still acting up it doesn't help that I'm taking Fitness Walking and all the walking we're doing is killing my knee. "sigh" Things with Daryl and are great. We don't get to see each other that much, but when we do see each other we make the time last....He's the sweetest, most kindest boyfriend ever. To prove to certain people that he's so sweet I'll tell you something that happened to me last week and tell you what he did for me. Last monday I got out of science lab 2 hours early so me and some friends decided to go get some food. While we were on the road to find some eats, we got in a 4 car pill up. Some guy that was drunk and on his cell phone hit the car that was behind us, that car hit us and we hit the car in front of us. Somehow I ended up with 3 broken ribs, i was bleedy internally and a piece of my broken ribs were streaks my right lung, which was making bleed internally. So this past saturday I went back into surgery and they fixed me ( i hope). But while I was in surgery my counsin jen, her boyfriend (who happens to be one of my ex boyfriends) and my best guy friend jesse where there with me and keeping Daryl up to speed with everything that was going on. While I was in surgery they "the doctors" lost me for 5 mins; which had everyone scared to death. My counsin's boyfriend told Daryl what was going on and he was getting really scared. Finally around 330/4pm I got out of surgery and everything was a okay and i got to go home :-). Everyone wanted to go out to eat so we all went but I didn't eat b/c i wasn't hurngery then. My couins boyfriend texted Daryl from my cell and told him that I was home and that I wantes to see him. So Daryl came down can saw me. He broguht me flowers and dinner but i still wasn't hungery. Daryl also didn't go into work sunday like he was suppose too, instead he stayed with me to make sure I was okay. Gotta love him, and boy do I love him more then ever. :-) Besides, me having surgerys up the ass, I'm still working at Pirce Chopper aka HELL!!! and I've got so much homework up the ass that I'm not getting any sleep. I'm beginning to forget what sleep is. The only time I get g a good ngiths sleep is when Daryl is here and I I can't figuer that out for the life of me. All I now is that this Science,and Math class is going to kill me with all the work in it. But, what can i do? Well, I've got to go and finish my second paper for Media and Society :-/.
Later,
Tara
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| Knee Surgery |
[29 Jul 2005|07:18pm] |
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Not a lot as happened since I last really updated this thing. I had surgery on my left knee today...which sucks major b/c I can't do anything :-( Other then that I've been relaxing a lot and getting tan. I haven't been working much. My sister Julie and I are throwing a Party on August 6th and eveyone is welcome to join in on the fun. It's going to be a lot of fun. Well, I have to get going, sitting here at the computer is killing my knee so I have to go lay down or Daryl will kill me when he finds out that I'm not relaxing like I should be.
Later,
Tara
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| 4 Months of Love |
[11 Jul 2005|06:35pm] |
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I keep on
I keep on loving
Oh, oh
Oh, oh
Mmm
(I'm gonna keep on loving you)
Mmm
(I'm gonna keep on)
I'm gonna keep on loving you
(Loving you)
Oh
(I'm gonna keep on)
Don't tell me it's time to go
I think my watch is too slow
Please, I don't wanna know
(I don't wanna know)
Baby, what will it hurt
If I stay on tonight
And bring yourself into me
Boy I think you should know
I'm not letting you go
All night
I don't wanna have to say goodnight
Hold tight
I just wanna stay and hold you tight
So right
Feels so right no matter what we do
I'm just gonna keep on loving you
Yeah you're like heaven to hold
And you're the flame when I'm cold
(Boy I think you should know)
Boy I think you should know
I'm not letting you go
All night
I don't wanna have to say goodnight
Hold tight
I just wanna stay and hold you tight
So right
It feels so right no matter what we do
I'm just gonna keep on loving you
All night
Love me like the rainbow loves the light
Hold tight
Feels me like the raindrops kiss the sky
So right
Feels so right no matter what we do
I'm just gonna keep on loving you
I think I should stay awhile and keep enjoying you
Come close, wrap me in your arms
Say you want me too
Intoxicated by the way you're making me move
I know I'm gonna keep on loving you
Oh
(la, la, la, la, la, la)
(So right)
(la, la, la, la, la, la)
I'm gonna keep on loving you
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[08 Jul 2005|11:51am] |
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Since i last updated this thing not a lot as happened. Monday, Julie and I had a picnic at Highland park where my so-called friend Cody found us and hanged with us the whole time; which at some point got on my neavers. Before the fireworks started Daryl called me and while i was on the phone with him Cody was getting to me and he was pissing Daryl off. I've been sick all week trying to get rid of this damn cold and it's not working at all. Everything that i've been eating wont stay down and i've only aten soup, and crakers. I think i've lost some weight from the not eating as much and from all the sweating i've been doing all week along. I really wish that Daryl would come over and take care of me :-( Instead of Daryl coming over to take care of me he went out and got a motorcycel which i'm not to happy about b/c he was suppose to be giving me his truck and i really wanted that truck :-( Besides me being sick and all that shit, I haven't seen Daryl in two weeks and I'm missing him to death and the next time i see him i'm going to attack him like there's no tomorrow, and i know that he won't mind at all; actually him enjoy it :-) I'm so evil. Not seeing your boyfriend in weeks can get a girl worked up and all. "All work and no play makes Tara a dall girl" :-) Well that's about it for now. I've got to go and get some rest and find out if Daryl's got tomorrow off of work and if he doesn if he's going to come over tonite.
Later,
Tara
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| Happy 4th Of July |
[04 Jul 2005|12:42pm] |
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HAPPY 4TH OF JULY EVERYONE :-)
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[24 Jun 2005|02:18pm] |
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"Rollin' (The Ballad Of Big & Rich)"
Brother and sisters
We are here for one reason
And one reason alone
To share our love of music
I present to you
Country music without prejudice, hey
Country boys don't rock and roll
Yeah the record man told me so
Yeah you'll never get it on the radio
Why they trying to complicate
The simple music that we make
Oh cause if it moves my soul
I'm gonna keep on rollin, rollin
Hey, just wanna hear everybody sing (rollin', rollin')
At the top of your lungs till the windows break (rollin', rollin')
Say hey, hey, hey
I ain't gonna shut my mouth
Don't mind if I stand out in a crowd
Just wanna live outloud
Well I know there's got to be
A few hundred million more like me
Just trying to keep it free, yeah
Hey, just wanna hear everybody sing (rollin', rollin')
At the top of your lungs till the windows break (rollin', rollin')
Say hey, hey, hey
Charlie Pride was the man in black
Rock and roll use to be about Johnny Cash
Yeah whatcha think about that
Well I'm a crazy son-of -a-(bad word)
But I know I'm gonna make it big and rich
Yeah im gonna let it rip
Hey, just wanna hear everybody sing (rollin', rollin')
At the top of your lungs till the windows break (rollin', rollin')
Say hey, cowboy Troy
[Cowboy Troy]
Dum-diggity-dum, diggity-diggity-dum dig this
Slicker than the grease from a BBQ Briskit
Got more chunk than a fresh potato salad
You thought you had your answer
But your answer was invalid
Your looking at me crazy cause you think I'm loco
The big black cowboy, with the crazy vocal
Todas las personas gritando arriva
Now you heard it, now I know you a believer
Esta cancion es para toda la gente
Es muy importante a usar su mente
So let go of all your preconcieved notions
Get up on your feet and put your body in motion
Cause back home we love to dance
We could be two-stepin, or ravin' to trance
And when the party is crunk, the girls back it up
We got the systems in the cars and the 20's on the trucks
6 foot four with a cowboy hat
I dont mess around, yo what's up with that
I'm cowboy troy, a texas hick
And I'm rollin with the brothers
Big and Rich
Go cowboy go cowboy go
Go cowboy go cowboy go
Hey, just wanna hear everybody sing (rollin', rollin')
At the top of your lungs till the windows break (rollin', rollin')
Say hey, hey, hey
Hey, just wanna hear everybody sing (rollin', rollin')
At the top of your lungs till the windows break (rollin', rollin')
Say hey, hey, hey
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| Depressed |
[09 May 2005|10:51pm] |
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Have yuo ever want to tell someone something, but your not sure on how they would take it or how they would react? Well that's the problem that I'm having right now. I want to tell Daryl that I love him but I don't know how to he's going to react or how he's going to respone to it. I know that it's only been a month that I've been seeing him, I feel like this is true and I know that it's for real. I think that I'm going to just say it to him.
Later,
Tara
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